A Walking Contradiction

Sunday, July 9, 2017


Wow. I can't believe that half the year has gone by already. It has been an eye opening and eventful year but I shall save all that sappy stuff for my 2017 wrap up at the end of the year.



Anyway, I was browsing through my old posts in attempts to get some inspiration and stumbled upon this list. I published this list below in 2015 and realised that I never even completed it. Amazing how ambitious I was, wanting to achieve everything in there, and yet ironically, I never did complete the list. I'm turning twenty five in exactly three weeks but I have only been able to strike out ONE item without thinking twice.

I will be hitting the quarter life crisis in 2017. Holy shit. 

  1. Riding / Driving License (Expected 2018)
  2. Open-Water Diving License
  3. ACCT License
  4. Graduate with a bachelor's degree. (Expected 2018)
  5. Climb a real mountain.
  6. Try bungee jumping or sky diving.
  7. Invest in a new DSLR.
  8. Go on a solo trip. 
  9. Be happy with how I look. 
  10. Stay committed to rugby. (Totally not playing rugby anymore) 
  11. Donate blood.
  12. Be able to run 5km non stop. (Didn't even bother working on my fitness)
  13. Become financially self sufficient. 
  14. Learn how to cook at least 5 new dishes.
  15. Be independent. 
  16. Take my mum on an all expense paid trip. 
  17. Attend a spinning class.
  18. Watch a movie alone. 
  19. Learn yoga.
  20. Go on a road trip. 
  21.  
  22.  
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  25.   

I remembered quite clearly - when I wrote this list, I had just graduated a few months ago, just came back from Perth, I was not happy with my full time job, my relationship with my then boyfriend was starting to get rocky and all I could think of was that this was not the life I was meant to live. I was extremely uninspired and bored - with my then relationship, with my job, with my studies, with my life at that moment. 

Two years down the road and here I am. 
Jobless, but not broke. Single, but not lonely. Fat, but not unfit.

Basically, I'm a walking contradiction. 

I have travelled to more places than I could have ever imagined, thanks to the little savings I had left from my previous job and countless number of travel opportunities for work and leisure. I am now an undergrad with Murdoch University and trying my hardest to stay motivated enough to complete my double degree. I have played for teams I never thought I'd play for and coaching sports I never even knew existed. I did not plan any of this - but yet, I couldn't imagine living life any other way. 

I realise now how overambitious / vague / general that list is, up there. It looks more like a wish list than a list of things to achieve. Ironic how I educate students to set S.M.A.R.T. goals but don't practice it myself. So here goes nothing: a specific, measurable, achievable, realistic and timely list of things to achieve before I turn 30.

♥, NMJ

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